Interesting short story
December 4th, 2005 by linadaudI found this while surfin’ that it just hits me..
i love you … my dear friend
by love raviegaye espiritu
A friend is someone who cares about
you. The one that you can count on in times of troubles, pains, and
sufferings that occur in your life. The one that you can trust with all
the secrets of your life. A friend is someone who always finds time to
listen to all the stories you tell and the one that is always concerned
in everything that you do. These traits I found in you, that’s why I
really trusted you, and for all of these, I know nothing to repay you
but to simply be your friend. And we share the laughter for years
admitting to each other that we enjoy being with one another.
But
lately little changes are slowly taking place, I just woke up one
morning that my feelings for you have changed. To describe it I don’t
know of a way, its just that I have this weird feeling that I always
want to see your cute face, to hear your sweet voice, and feel your
gentle touch. And when it’s already my chance to see you, my knees
began trembling, my heart pounding faster than ever, my mind began to
mix up. “What shall I do? Will I put face powder on my face? What? What
now?” Asking myself as if I was crazy. Then you suddenly appear right
in front of me smiling. “Oh my! What shall I say?” I said to myself.
And nevertheless I was speechless. No words to say, no stories to tell,
nothing. But I managed to keep my feelings hidden.
I wanted that
moment to last forever but unfortunately, the day is about to end, and
nothing can we do about it, so we just bid goodbye to each other, and
hope to see one another sooner.
That night, I was wondering under
the dim moonlight. Dreaming about you and I, walking hands in hands,
talking sweetly about sweet nothing… “Oh My!” I said to myself. “What’s
this happening to me as if I was bewitched by somebody? Is this love?
What can I do about it?” That night I slept with a smile in my lips.
On
the next day, I see you wearing a blue cold face. I asked, “What’s
Wrong?” while cheering you with all my might, but inside I too was
dying. You told me it’s because of a girl you like most but despite the
things you have done for her, she just can’t learn how to love you. My
tears started to stream down my cheeks. You thought I understand you
and that’s what causes me to cry. “No, you don’t understand,” I wanted
this to tell you, “I was crying because like you, I really felt
something special for someone and that’s you, but whatever I do, you
just can’t feel that I love you too! And now you’re telling me you’re
in love with somebody! What about me? What about my feelings for you?”
These words I don’t have the guts to tell, so I just chose to be quiet
and it’s all a secret for me to keep.
I spent that night crying
endlessly. I can feel that boundless woe blanketing my lonely soul.
“What shall I do now?” Will I let you know about my feelings for you?”
These question rolled out of my mind. But after that, I remembered that
I valued our friendship too much that I can’t stand to loose it just
because of this stupid feeling they called LOVE.
That was my first
decision, but I realized that I couldn’t be your friend without
thinking about my feelings for you. “What will happen to me now? Now
that I can’t hide my feelings anymore? … … Now I know what to do…” I
sadly whispered to myself. I know it will take a long time for me to do
this but I know it’s a must. Many hours passed and I spent it all by
crying, for I promised to myself that, that will be the last time that
I will cry just because of you. However I was wrong in this.
The
next day I met you, I know I have practiced every word that I shall
tell you. But I just stop myself from crying the moment I saw you
drawing near. But I wipe it all dry for I have a very important message
for you. But before I have the chance to tell you these words, you
greeted me with a cheerful smile and a warm “Hi!” Ignoring this I told
you, “Farewell,”. You asked me “Why?” Once again my tears began to fall
because of the deep pain that I’m hiding inside but I know I must
continue. ”Farewell my friend. For I am not worthy to be your friend.
For a long time, I have betrayed our friendship.” I said. “Betrayed?” I
can’t remember any time that you betrayed our friendship!” You said.
But in your face I can see that you’re so confused. I must finish I
know for ‘this is the only way to forget your love,” this is my heart
instructing me for it too was hurt. I took a deep breath and said, “No,
you don’t understand. I have betrayed it. I have promised that we will
be friends forever but suddenly I felt that you already had a special
place in my heart. I’m sorry. And now I’m leaving with all our happy
and sad memories. But before I go, I want you to know that I LOVE YOU …
MY DEAR FRIEND.” After this, I run with all my might even though I
heard you shout, “Wait!” I can’t stand any single moment that I can
hear your sweet and gentle voice because underneath that is the fact
that you could never be mine… …`
What would you do if you were her?
